You know what? I think I'm just gonna settle with this as my background pic for now. Pretty obvious reason why. This basically sums up why I haven't given up on mortality yet.
I am proud of myself as an anime nerd and I will never betray my undying love for the 2D. Anime saved my life. It gave me a reason to never give up hope and will always bring me up when I'm down. It shares my pains, my sorrows, my happiness, my fears, my passions, and my desires. It's an ideal universe where anything is possible and I can be whoever or whatever I want. It's an utopian reality that I can fully experience many different variations of life that have an endless number of possibilities and isn't limited by anything except our imagination. It taught me many things, regardless of how useful it is in this shitty "server" known as reality, I found meaning in existence with what I learned and anime was with me all the time through it. Anime was my teacher, parent, best friend, lover/waifu, confidant, senpai, and source of inspiration. I would never be able to fully appreciate how much anime has done for me. I am sincerely thankful and owe my life to anime.