I'm going to describe my situation. I know it's going to sound extreme, rightfully so, but I want you to tell me if it sounds like a mental illness or not. I don't know if I'm safe to talk about it with my family or friends for advice.
I am taking the Christian Bale approach to muscle lose by starving myself (see: The Machinist). This means my calorie intake is always less than 500 a day, sometimes even 200. The goal of this diet is not to lose weight. Instead, I want to lose unwanted muscle in my legs to look better in clothing I already own. Because starvation is practically the most effective way to lose muscle, I have started depriving myself of food. My daily food intake usually consists of one apple, vegetable stir-fry, bits of dried fruit, black coffee and a LOT of water.
I'm 5'7" (152.4 cm). I weigh 130 pounds. My BMI is 20 (normal), meaning I'm not underweight. I know that I am not fat. But my legs are objectively large, too large for my liking, due to the muscle I have gained from exercise on a treadmill.
So, what do you think? It sounds extreme, but does it sound like a mental illness? If it is, what should I do?
>discover masturbating at the late age of 19 >become addicted >lose virginity shortly after >occasional girlfriends but mostly alone the next 4 years >friction burns on shaft from constant wanking.
Its been a terrible struggle with this fucking addiction, but i am starting to fap less for more confidence and to let this skin heal, but im afraid(most likely irrationally) that it won't help. I went to a dermatologist recently and they prescribed me Hydrocortisone .2%, but i read from some reviews that it actually thins out the skin even more.
I'm thinking of applying vitamin E skin cream/oil or a Zinc oxide skin cream for its healing abilities.
Does anyone have any better suggestions or experience with friction burns?
Input from fellow med school bros is especially appreciated, but I'm sure a lot of people can relate to how I'm feeling.
So as I implied above, I'm in med school. Started my very first semester in August. In a week we have our third exam which includes anatomy for the first time. It's going to be fucking nuts and for the past three weeks everyone has been studying like mad. I'm on top of my shit, but I know that if I allot myself too much more free time, I'll fall behind. I like what I'm studying, but I get random fits of depression about once a week over how much I work and how little I get to see my friends, pursue my hobbies, etc.
At the same time, my friends back home who are still in college/working entry-level jobs are by no means slouching, but they clearly have far more free time than I do and are able to go out every night on the weekends and have fun in general a lot more. I feel like a loser by comparison, which makes me really self conscious when it comes to my girlfriend back home; I always feel like she's gonna lose interest in me because of how little fun I have these days, even though she always makes it clear how much I mean to her.
I think what really made this spike in intensity was seeing my girlfriend's outfit for Halloween today. It's pretty goddamn slutty. My Halloween plans include studying. That's it. Meanwhile, my girlfriend is going to be out at a party being oggled by a bunch of douche bags. This in particular brought on a really abstract kind of feel that I can't completely nail down. I just know that I feel like shit right now.
I guess I have to ask: can anyone here relate? Does anyone have advice on how to deal with the emotions? I already exercise a lot; it's really the only other activity I have time for besides studying, and it only makes me feel better for like an hour afterwards. Sorry if this wasn't so coherent, I really don't know how to define how I'm feeling or how to deal with it.
Hello /adv/, Every time I approach a new a girl I like, it always ends up being like an interrogatory : I ask a question, the girl answers me and that's it until I ask another question then again, an awkward silence. It's always like that, even though I just want to make a new friend. I show my interest to her, I smile, I make eye contact, I control my body language (all of this without getting creepy of couse) but I feel like I'm not interesting them.
So how do I build attraction if what I'm doing isn't enough ?
Sup /adv/. I am now just leaving a 5 year fight with escapism though the use of drugs, social isolation, relationship dependency, plans to kill myself or run away, literally. I changed to 3 different schools during high school, with my motive being to finish as fast as possible. I just wanted to leave. It was all due to a long history of social anxiety and loneliness. I'm starting to feel like myself again but for 5 years I didn't focus on what I actually wanted and dropped all my interests and hobbies. I finally made some actual friends but I'm so far behind on my interests that it's hard to relate because in those 5 years, my peers developed themselves. I'm finally getting myself together again and now I feel stuck. I don't look back anymore very often, but when I do, I think of the friends I had in middle school that I left behind when I started losing my grip on reality. It fucking hurts a lot. My question is, what should be my next step in keeping up with recovering? I love to socialize now, but I still have a bit of anxiety. My mindset has changed a lot and my mind is a lot quieter. Is there any good places or websites that can help me keep this positive streak? I almost relapsed with the escapism yesterday but I was feeling blue. I hadn't cried in weeks and last night I almost did. I've thought about seeing a therapist or getting evaluated, but I'm not really sure what's going on with me. I'm just glad I'm getting better.
>have OCD >part of your daily ritual is visiting the places that meant something to you as a kid and "reliving" old memories with your imagination >even if those places (and you) significantly changed and you're incapable of feeling the same joy you used to have while being there >realize it's meaningless but the compulsion is too strong
It's the same damn shit every day. Go there, feel nothing, get disappointed, go home and do it all again the next day. I tried to break the habit, but eventually I still return. What am I supposed to do? I'm tired of running in circles already (not to mention me staring at houses that have new owners nowadays makes me look like some sort of a creep, and if someone commits some crime I may be the prime suspect since no one mentally healthy just goes to the same house every day, stares at it for minutes and just leaves) and prescribed medications are about as helpful as a pile of dog shit. Moving somewhere else, unfortunately, is not an option
Im going to my first concert this november what should i expect is there alcohol there? tips to make it more enjoyable? what was your first concert like?
