I need some advice on how to shake this overwhelming feeling of dread that I'm never going to find the right woman for me.

I've dated girls before but it never worked out. I'm not into "traditional" family values so that also poses a problem with dating. Online dating isn't really an option because I'm not good looking face-wise. Sometimes I feel like I'm downright ugly. I've always been told that it matters more about who you are inside and all that shit but my last girlfriend left me for a guy who was arguably better looking than me.

This whole thing has caused me to become kind of numb; like I just drift through my days in a sort of melancholy autopilot that I only occasionally break out of. It's hard if not impossible for me to even speak to women. The way they look at me just like they're peering into my soul, it just kills me inside and makes me feel like something's wrong with me that I can't see.

>Order something for halloween from amazon canada
>Pay for the expedited shipping because slowpoke
>Expected to arrive 27th-30th
>Changed to 30th by 8pm
>Changes to 'Today' once it's the 30th
>Approaching 8pm and am now officially tripping balls
The fuck, I'm seriously screwed if this shit doesn't show up by tomorrow.

>Be me
>In a very controlling and abusive relationship
>I feel guilt for literally everything
>I develop intrusive thoughts
>we're broken up now
>we still talk everyday
>I still feel like she's the only one i'm able to think of
>I have intrusive thoughts about stuff I did in my childhood and early/mid teenage-hood that I feel really guilty about (incestuous actions and incestuous masturbation and such)
>The thoughts have come back to haunt me
>tfw a musician
>just recorded a song and had an intrusive thought about a childhood memory
>feel massive guilt

tldr: Intrusive thoughts are ruining my life. I feel like i'm starting to gain control of them but now I also feel like if i'm becoming okay with these intrusive thoughts and I feel guilty about it.

How should i ask her out after all this time? What should i say? Ive spend the whole time thinking about her and im sure she wants me back too.

Do all women deep down want children, regardless of trying to be badass with the "I hate kids" crap?

gf is an illustrator, she really likes her career and i gladly support her with that -shes really good tho- but i felt a bit jealous when she goes to life drawing classes to draw nude male models

how i can deal with that? i know that is part of her studies and im not gonna stop her going to her classes. i trust her a lot but for some reason im uncomfortable with it

some advice

How do I stop being arrogant?

I like myself. I like to talk. A lot. People hate that.

I'm annoying. Help me.

>gained like 50 pounds over the past year
>trying to lose weight again
>have good self control as far as not buying unhealthy food on my own, but my parents keep buying unhealthy food and I can't help it when it's so easy to get
>want to move out anyway but I only have a part-time job
>try applying to full-time jobs with benefits but never get replies
>being a fat piece of shit makes me lose motivation to look for jobs and do so only rarely

What do?

I create a fake underage girl facebook, Ive been seducing the husband of my highschool crush(she made me miserable, lost money and dignity bc her)

My plan is to get nudes from her using her idiot husband(told him I wanna threesome) but this nigger keep lying about he has no gf or wive(he has fucking photos of her and their son on his wall and a lot of congrats) how do I procede with this reatarded cuck? I want the fucking pics but should I just leave there and show it to her so I ruin her life?

ITT: Write a letter to someone who may or may not read it