>>16385467I will try to elaborate on our "sex" life, because aside from the distance between us, that was the most confounding part. She seemed to enjoy kissing, cuddling, and touching, but she was very averse to having her crotch touched, something I learned the first time I tried to reach between her legs and she told me to stop, which I did. I tried again after a couple weeks, and when she refused again, I realized that she just plain didn't want to be touched there. So I never tried again.
The only time she ever initiated anything was the first night when I confessed my feelings for her; we hugged for a little while, and later in the evening she leapt on me and kissed me. It was fantastic, though I mumbled a lot and generally came across as an idiot.
After that, though, I always had to be the one to initiate. She'd certainly send hints my way, and it was up to me to read when she wanted me to make a move. Difficult when I'd had no experience, but I tried to learn. There were times I kissed her when I don't think she really wanted to be kissed (and we stopped kissing soon afterward) and there were times where I didn't kiss her where she seemed disappointed because I didn't do anything.
There were a couple times where the tension was palpable between us, and we threw ourselves at one another simultaneously, kissing and holding one another very tightly and passionately, and those are moments I treasure in my memory.
It was very hard to know what I was and wasn't allowed to touch. Even though she really liked having her thighs touched, I generally avoided touching her legs because I didn't want her to feel like I was trying to reach for her crotch. I did touch her butt a lot and she never protested, but I don't know if she actually liked it or not.
