i keep having this fantasy where there's this ugly yet kind beta guy who is totally devoted to me and appreciates me. i literally want the ugliest one to cuddle with and fall in love with and make him feel happy. i wouldn't mind at all being seen in public with him either.

i think i look ok, most of my boyfriends and the guys i've been with have been classic jock-type chads. unfortunately, they made terrible partners and were bad in bed; it only hurt when we had sex since they were so big and rough, plus they never took the time to try and please me.

tell me why i shouldn't pursue this and why this is a bad idea. do guys who love that selflessly even exist? pic somewhat related, i don't think ninja counts as ugly though.