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>torn between starting school & a job for the first time now, and saying fuck it all and traveling the world bumstyle
I don't want to spend the next 2-4 years of my life, the height of my youth staring down books and working menially in a culture I cannot relate to, but if I don't I'll never accomplish any goals anywhere. I likely wouldn't get to go to a university and live with people my age, I'd be stuck in the same shit suburb I've holed up in the past 4 years going to whatever school was most convenient, getting a mediocre education, and just the thought of staying here any longer makes me want to die. I'm as young as I'm gonna get, and my dream of living as a musician somewhat stands in direct opposition to going to school now, since the older you get, the less chance you're gonna make a break in the business.
Another option would just be saying fuck it allx2 and signing my ass up for the marines, but provided I survive combat, I'd be coming back to the 'real world' even later in my life, and call me romantic, but I've never wanted to live very long in the first place, so it just seems like gaining means but wasting time. Besides the fact that I am an artist by nature, & while I no longer fear i'd 'lose' myself in military, I'd just be trading black sheepdom here to have it there.
Alternatively, I can also say fuck it allx3 and find some remote monastery in asia and spend the rest of my life meditating. But I'd always wonder what if..
Mentally, I'm a fuckin alien compared to my family, and I've only ever met a couple people I considered good friends, both of whom have since vanished from my life. You're the only ones that can help me, /adv/. I come humbly before you. I've got the wings, but no beak to pick a direction & no mentor to help provide clarity. I'm afraid of wasting my potential, I'm afraid it's already a hair too late.
what fucking do
>torn between starting school & a job for the first time now, and saying fuck it all and traveling the world bumstyle
I don't want to spend the next 2-4 years of my life, the height of my youth staring down books and working menially in a culture I cannot relate to, but if I don't I'll never accomplish any goals anywhere. I likely wouldn't get to go to a university and live with people my age, I'd be stuck in the same shit suburb I've holed up in the past 4 years going to whatever school was most convenient, getting a mediocre education, and just the thought of staying here any longer makes me want to die. I'm as young as I'm gonna get, and my dream of living as a musician somewhat stands in direct opposition to going to school now, since the older you get, the less chance you're gonna make a break in the business.
Another option would just be saying fuck it allx2 and signing my ass up for the marines, but provided I survive combat, I'd be coming back to the 'real world' even later in my life, and call me romantic, but I've never wanted to live very long in the first place, so it just seems like gaining means but wasting time. Besides the fact that I am an artist by nature, & while I no longer fear i'd 'lose' myself in military, I'd just be trading black sheepdom here to have it there.
Alternatively, I can also say fuck it allx3 and find some remote monastery in asia and spend the rest of my life meditating. But I'd always wonder what if..
Mentally, I'm a fuckin alien compared to my family, and I've only ever met a couple people I considered good friends, both of whom have since vanished from my life. You're the only ones that can help me, /adv/. I come humbly before you. I've got the wings, but no beak to pick a direction & no mentor to help provide clarity. I'm afraid of wasting my potential, I'm afraid it's already a hair too late.
what fucking do
