>>16386709 I'm not him>>16386645Everyone's story is different. My ex and I met five years ago, at first I had to ask her to forget me because I was still involved with another woman, but after that didn't work out we have been through long distance relationship at different stages, living together for a year, open relationship, exclusivity, cheating, at least five breakups, four instances of no contact, anxiety, depression, her family hating me and wrongfully accusing me of being manipulative and emotionally abusive - which she for 2 1/2 years never disagreed with due to anxiety and depression, which meant that we've been keeping our relationship a secret from friends and family since the summer of 2013. Less then 11 months ago we said goodbye because she was going backpacking for six months, and I had to get over her. In the meantime she's met two other guys, one of which she was exclusive with for six months. They broke up three months after their return, and three weeks later I knocked on her door.
Let it destroy you if it has to, and see how you'd like to proceed. In my case there's no reason to stop having her as my lover, and I can't let her being with other guys affect me, because what she does with her body when I'm not around has nothing to do with me. She's a beacon in my life, and I'm one in hers. We both tell each other that we love yous without expecting to hear it back. There is no more drama, we enjoy each second we're together, but I never expect her to come back to me. I take one day at a time, and every time she walks out the door I consider it the last time, and I'm fine with it. It makes me the least needy guy in the world, essential in order for me to keep her attraction. Also, it means I can sleep with other girls without feeling guilty. I don't love her any less after being with other girls (I've fucked four other girls the last year, the last one on Tuesday this week, two days before fucking my ex again,) so there's no reason to care.
