It's been over a year yet I still think about her 24/7. The first 8 months were torture. I didn't eat or sleep, or wash tbh. I stopped living. I dropped to 8 stone. I've tried to pick myself up but am constantly reminded about her. Songs, TV, films, places, words, laughter.

I'm certain I had a breakdownmonths ago, and possibly a heartattack. My heart palpitates constantly and is never at rest. The chest pain was unbearable. My depression is well hidden from others, though recently I sought advice from a doctor. I was prescribed beta-blockers.

Help. Please. What the fuck do I do? I don't want to slip into that deep depression again yet find myself listening to love songs to the point I'm almost crying. It's been over a year and is over, but I can't move on