holy FUCK wow this is some stupid shit. How do I not give a fuck?

>be studying in empty room with 1 other person i don't know at all
>we don't even talk
>he leaves eventually, i'm still studying
>i start feeling so lonely and depressed by myself that I start to cry in the empty room
>yay abandonment issues max lvl
>that starts a spiral of 'i'll be alone forever boo hoo' and i have to lock myself in a room and cry it out
>sometimes this happens if someone doesn't text back in 2 hours
>at least these boo hoo episodes don't last long

so my doctor is sure I have bpd etc and i agree and this shit is stupid.

i've been through lots of therapy and it helps but this shit is fucking DUMB. i'm already on anti anxiety meds. seriously what would you do