I'm 26 and need help getting my life back together. In the past 3 years I've lost all my friends, my room mate moved out because I'm difficult to live with, and I've taken up smoking pot just to help me sleep because I cant.

My life might seem perfect on the outside. Healthy physically, corporate job in a big city, guys giving my attention. However, I feel empty. I've ruined whatever good relationships I've had in the past and now I just find myself around guys who only want to sleep with me. The last three guys I've slept with don't want to even talk anymore the day after. Fuck, I can't even find a friend who wants to go to a concert with me and had to give my second ticket to my dad.

I didn't really realize just how far I'd fallen until this past week. My ex boyfriend from three years ago texted me for the first time since we broke up. (I ruined that by sleeping with two of his friends, I did it on purpose because he was boring and too good for me) He was back from law school and wanted to see how I was doing. We got dinner and I realized how much I missed him. I just want someone boring like him. I wanted to invite him back to my apartment but I didn't because it would never work out. His friends hate me, his family hates me, I haven't changed I've gotten worse. I fucked something up and I keep fucking things up. After dinner he sent me a text

>Is everything all right?

...its not.