How do a break out of the catch 22 that is loneliness? I'm tired of being single and lonely, yet the very fact that I am lonely puts girls off. My personality has become bitter and subdued, and I have difficulty "faking it". Flirting with women makes me feel like a clown, clamoring for attention. I hate the game, but every once in a while I push myself out of my zone and convince myself to play it. I just can't keep up the act for very long, and always end up depressed after a night out.

I have been focusing on other areas of life. I'm proud of what I've accomplished, but the feelings are still there. The lack of sexual intimacy in my life is even starting to affect my projects. There is less motivation to work hard when my only reward at the end of it all will be to live alone with expensive things. So I know that "improving yourself" is solid advice but it isn't working for me anymore.