I was his first girlfriend, met in Oct last year

He supported me throughout my depression, self-harm and being kicked out by my parents at the time.

Things were going really well between us at this point. We had occasional arguments but nothing major.

He made a real effort on Valentines day. I wasn't expecting him to get me anything since we hadn't been together that long. He made
me feel really special.

In May of this year I went out with another guy and some friends after work and got drunk. I ended up sleeping with the guy but
it wasn't planned. I was drunk and I didn't know what I was doing. I didn't tell my bf and kept it from him. I even called him
that night when I got home drunk but I was so drunk. He got the blame for the state I was in.

He found out in June after reading through my messages. He cut me off. I contacted him a week later and asked him to forgive me, told him I was sorry and that I knew what a big mistake I made. He forgave me and we got back together

2 weeks later I told him it wasn't working and we agreed to be friends but he wasn't particularly pleased.

I would still call him everyday and we'd hang out sometimes. We were even fwb on and off. I know he developed a drinking problem maybe
due to this.

I started a new course recently so I haven't been talking to him as often. He told me that he couldn't remain friends with me
cos it was preventing him from moving on. I was really upset and told him that I wanted to work on myself first, then me and him could talk about "us". He was really upset and tried to give me an explanation and didn't blame anyone or anything, but said it was affecting him too much. We remained in contact.


2 days later he saw I was talking to an ex (just friends) and he angrily told me enough was enough and we got
into an argument over text. I told him I only stayed with him cos I felt sorry for him and he had nobody. He mocked my self harm and
then he blocked me off everything.

What should I do?