I'm 19 and I have no motivation to do shit. This year I went to Germany so I could study german and start college there. I stayed for almost one year, didn't learn german that good because I didn't study at home, because all I did was staying on the internet all day and eating junk food and failed the entry test twice while spending 6000 euros of my parents money, for my stay there. Now I'm back home and I just started college. It's overwhelming for me, things go with a fast pace and I can't keep up. I can't concentrate in class and can't study for more than 15 minutes without being distracted. If I just had food to eat, internet and some little money to spend I would be happy. I still enjoy ordinary stuff like walking, listening to music and browsing online all day, but I can't do that for a long time because my parents won't keep me forever and I have to earn my own money. They're already bitching me about it.


.Do I have depression ? Sometimes when I'm with my friends, listen to music or do something that brings me joy, I feel very happy and content with my life. But then something happens, like I sometimes get frustrated with school or I remind myself what will I do with my life. In this case I get very sad and hopeles, and I'm like thay right now as I'm writing this.I personally have my dreams, like being a music producer for instance, but the goal seems too far and when I think about the work I need to put in to go there, I lose my interest and feel sad.

I eat very healthy right now, exercise and still I have these problems.

How can i solve this motivation problem and do I have depression or some other mental issue ?