/adv/ I'm always paranoid about everything. I'm scared as hell about too much. I'm afraid of losing everyone I've come into contact with. I tried therapy but I just shut myself down from it. I probably just fucked a relationship up because I had no idea what she was doing, and when i talked to her about it she got mad and she was right and now I feel like shit. I can never talk to my parents about anything because I don't want to let them down or have them be angry at me. I never actually realized I was a broken emotional mess up until this point.

What's the first step /adv/?