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Quoted By: >>16394587
Hi /adv/ I have a problem I can't admit to anyone expect the anonymous people I trust on this board.
I'm 20 years old, and I've spent more than £5k on escorts from 2012 to 2015. During this time I've been unable to hold a steady relationship with the opposite sex, it seems to break down during the first month or so, even though I'm not using escorts during this time.
I work full time, and live in a decent apartment, but when walking home, or just relaxing, I get a sudden urge to hop onto adultwork, and find the closest escort to blow some money on.
It might sound cliche, but the difference is that my favourite thing about it is not the sex, but rather trying to convince the girl to do things she's not allowed to do normally. For example I just came back seeing this 20 year old girl. Usually they don't let you kiss the girl, and are strictly condom-only. The thrill for me is being able to touch the girl in all the right places, get her so wet that she decides to throw all the rules out of the window and go raw, when this happens I get so fucking turned on and nothing else matters.
The thrill of this, I think, is getting in the way of me finding a girl I really like, or rather a girl that likes me. I'm pretty decent looking, very good facial bone structure, average height, nice body. The last "serious" relationship I had with a girl was one where she was the same age as me and bisexual. She would let me do whatever I wanted to her, until she broke all contact with me after she left my workplace (she was an intern).
What do I do about this?
I'm 20 years old, and I've spent more than £5k on escorts from 2012 to 2015. During this time I've been unable to hold a steady relationship with the opposite sex, it seems to break down during the first month or so, even though I'm not using escorts during this time.
I work full time, and live in a decent apartment, but when walking home, or just relaxing, I get a sudden urge to hop onto adultwork, and find the closest escort to blow some money on.
It might sound cliche, but the difference is that my favourite thing about it is not the sex, but rather trying to convince the girl to do things she's not allowed to do normally. For example I just came back seeing this 20 year old girl. Usually they don't let you kiss the girl, and are strictly condom-only. The thrill for me is being able to touch the girl in all the right places, get her so wet that she decides to throw all the rules out of the window and go raw, when this happens I get so fucking turned on and nothing else matters.
The thrill of this, I think, is getting in the way of me finding a girl I really like, or rather a girl that likes me. I'm pretty decent looking, very good facial bone structure, average height, nice body. The last "serious" relationship I had with a girl was one where she was the same age as me and bisexual. She would let me do whatever I wanted to her, until she broke all contact with me after she left my workplace (she was an intern).
What do I do about this?
