I finally moved out of my shitty small town but I can't seem to escape the drama or retarded people from it. They talk so much drama all the time and it's like I can never escape it. I have random rumors always spread about me and it's so fucking annoying thinking that I have this town that spews hatred constantly against me.

Basically everyone who stayed behind in the town became a druggie and it's like a black hole. I was born in a city but grew up mainly in this town and looking back, it destroyed my life in a lot of ways. I used to be a really innocent kid and after meeting all the crappy people in my town, I became so negative and hate-filled, violent, pessimistic, etc. because I was bullied and it was literally just shitty people all around me.

When I moved to college, I finally saw how crappy my town was objectively. When I moved out of state to a big city, I saw even more how much of a shit hole my life was there.

I just want to move on but it seems like the past keeps haunting me and I'm tired of it. Maybe I need to go through more therapy? To this day I have serious anger problems and not hereditary but from years of abuse from these people in my town, to the point I have a very difficult time trusting anyone anymore. My town was filled with backstabbers or people who were nice to your face and then actually hated you behind your back.

I'm so happy I got out but looking back, I feel like a large part of my life was wasted in negativity from that shitty environment and it seems like it keeps trying to pull me back because of normiebook.

Will it just take time before I forget about that place ever again? It feels like a lot of my life was shaped around negativity and now that I'm much more positive, I see how self-destructive I was and my environment was.