I've never posted something like this on 4chan, I honestly don't know why I even turned here; however, I'd like some advice anon.
I grew up in a broken household, parents had a nasty divorce, tore our family in two.
I'm an adult now, post secondary student...enjoying it too, I have a beautiful girlfriend whom I think the world of.

Yet every month for almost 2 weeks I can't bring myself to think of a reason to keep going. My thoughts are flooded with the ideas of how worthless and unimportant I am. As if me being in this world is a burden to those around me.

I'll sit alone in my room at night and physically deprive myself from sleeping over these thoughts.
My friends and co-workers have no idea, I play it off as if I'm just joking about it.
It makes them laugh for some reason, they think I'm funny in a sick Robin Williams "hang in there" type way.

I make suicide jokes more frequently as of late, for instance, "todays the day fam!, I don't know why I bother waking up anymore"

Should I consider talking to a mental health professional, my school offers one.
I don't really know whats wrong with me, is it normal to be that sad, that often.