I know that so many others have life worse than I do. I'm thankful for the things I have in life, something I earned but somethings I just gained my chance. I try my best to remind myself this all the time.

I've been struggling a lot, I was hit by a car nearly 4 years ago, I was walking on the sidewalk and the person wasn't paying attention and hit me. At the time I was happy I didn't break any bones, but I never knew the extent of my mental problems. Long story short, I have a brain injury which ruined my working memory, and I've been told by my doctors and therapists that I've got major depressive disorder as well. I take the pills they tell me too, but I just wonder if it's all real.

I bring the accident up since I recently had the first round of depositions in the legal battle. I knew it would be tough, but 6 hours of being picked apart, over and over, I even had the opposing attorney laugh at me, when I was describing my depression. He'd ask me questions like, "So you'd feel sad as you'd put on your Omega watch?". It's always bothered me, but it just hit a nerve yesterday, I just spat out the standard answer, that depression affects people in unique ways regardless of status and I'd differ to my doctors for questions about the legitimacy of my diagnosis. They started to ask why I need to visit therapist, and why wont I release the notes. I talk a lot about other things that lead to my depression, the accident is a huge part, but they would want to use the rest to try and blame it on other things.

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