If I call myself in as a violent man with a knife and ran around acting psychotic in a threatening manner with a knife, do you think a cop will kill me? What are the odds? I just want to do this right and I'm too poor (64 cents to my name) to do it normally. My last hopes are suicide by cop or jumping in front of a train. The train is going to require about 3 hours of walking, but it's definitely an option.
Inb4 buy a gun or rope or novel gas. Helium didn't work. And I'm too poor to afford a rope or gun. Guns take too much bureacratic bullshit to own anyway.