i have come to know that i will never have a gf or hug a girl or anything at all. i will always be alone

i guess i have decided that the objectively correct decision is to not kill myself. however, everything serves as a reminder to why i should just end it now. coworkers bfs coming to bring them lunch, supporting them through stressful moments, etc... all serve to remind how i'm a fucking piece of shit. why work when no matter how much i put in, i will never have the only thing i ever wanted? why go to school, no one will ever give a fuck what i did with my life. i will never need to support a family.

i can't even watch tv or movies because there are always bf/gf or husband/wife dynamics and it fucks me up to see that. the only thing i watch is sports, i don't even really like it but it keeps me occupied and gives me shit to talk about with guys so i don't seem totally autistic.

any advice on how i can make this life not a living nightmare? or so i don't debate suicide fucking all day every day?