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I never should have come back from Iraq. I should have pushed harder for my CSM to let me extend.
I should have taken the armed contractor job in Bosnia immediately after I got out.
I miss combat, I miss the thrill and the danger. Nothing else compares to it. Not sex, not drugs( and I've tried most of them), nothing else. I'm so bored and disappointed with life. I've been trying to give civilian life a shot, because it's what I was told was expected of me, but it's just such a letdown.
But getting drunk numbs the pain and disappointment, and the mix of uppers I take keeps me feeling good enough to keep trying, most of the time.
But fuck. Shouldn't there be more to life than this? Shouldn't it be at least a little interesting?
I don't know what to do any more. Even pic related was a more interesting day than every day of the last 6 years.
I should have taken the armed contractor job in Bosnia immediately after I got out.
I miss combat, I miss the thrill and the danger. Nothing else compares to it. Not sex, not drugs( and I've tried most of them), nothing else. I'm so bored and disappointed with life. I've been trying to give civilian life a shot, because it's what I was told was expected of me, but it's just such a letdown.
But getting drunk numbs the pain and disappointment, and the mix of uppers I take keeps me feeling good enough to keep trying, most of the time.
But fuck. Shouldn't there be more to life than this? Shouldn't it be at least a little interesting?
I don't know what to do any more. Even pic related was a more interesting day than every day of the last 6 years.
