Is there something after this? I go to work. I eat. I pay my bills. I socialize. I have hobbies. I sleep. And every day this routine grows more strange. Nobody will talk about. Nobody will focus. Focus is elsewhere. Focus on getting drunk. Focus on fucking bitches. Focus on getting money. Focus on social media and celebrities and gossip and this YouTube video. Focus on bullshit. This is why I exist? Really? What the fuck. Is all of this just what happens to carbon when you give it several billion years? Why do you care about any of this?

Life is aimless. You can't create meaning. "Do something that will give your life meaning.", I'm told. I'm so tired of hearing that. And every time I do, it makes this hurt just a little worse. It shows you aren't listening.