So I've been with my fiance for 4 years. It is a complex relationship. We have a 3 year old and another one incoming. There is so much wrong with our relationship, I should really just relay the events of last night instead of getting too far into it. She has been in Florida with her mother since last Saturday. Every Wednesday, my coworkers go out and play pool in a tournament. For the first time ever, I could go because I am alone for this week. So I said I would go, and fiance absolutely looses her mind about the situation. She spent four or five hours breaking down over how she doesn't trust me. She doesn't really have a reason not to. Ive never cheated on her or anyone, never have even come close. She even stated that this was an insecurity issue, but she brought that up in the context of "you should have insecurity issues too, it means you think about me. (paraphrase)".

This kind of fight has been happening since the beginning. She got pregnant a month after we got together. She stated to me one time before she got pregnant the first time, "this is not the time for me to be pregnant, i would take care of the situation if it happened." After she actually got pregnant, she came out of the religious closet. There's nothing wrong with being religious but she's militant. I am basically an athiest so that is difficult. I have reason to believe she deliberately stopped taking the pill the first time, and the second time, she stopped taking the pill because we got in a fight, and "didnt think it would matter if she took it or not".

I need to leave for work, I'll check this again later this evening. Ive basically resigned my life to misery, accepting that i'll either make it to 55 or so, break up and move out, or kill myself along the way. I feel like ive been cursed.