Even tough I haven't been through much, This strange feeling surrounds me every now and then.

When I look at successful peoples lifes, do badly in an exam or simply get insulted I feel like a figurine in another peoples lifes that doesn't matter and could be replaced with someone else instantly.

I'm sure you encountered that person who thinks he/she can keep her/his problems to himself while non stop bitching about them. I'm trying not to be that person but every friend I've met fucks me up without even noticing it. This caused me to realize people simply don't care about anything but themselves.

As an egoist, wanting to mean something for people is in my nature and the fact that I don't makes me self destructive.

Dear /adv/, I'm scared of doing something stupid when feeling like this. Please help me.