Fuck it.
I've been so stressed and sad lately.
I decided I'd give it this last week to see if things would get any better, but they didn't.

The person I'm interested in won't even hang out with me, I'm three weeks behind in most of my classes, I can't look my friends in the eyes half time, and now I'm just constantly angry and tired.

I thought about just dropping out of college but that'd only make things worse. I'd have to immediately start paying back loans that I'm not in the position to start paying back.
Beyond that life just seems pointless.

I kinda feel bad for considering suicide, since one of my closest friends killed herself not too long ago. I lose one friend and here I am completely wrecked, how badly are my other friends gonna take it when they find out about me?

Guess it won't matter either way, I'd be dead so its not like I could feel bad. I've decided if I go through with it, I'll do it very early Sunday. When everyone is passed out from partying and drinking, and I can be alone.
And if I don't go through with it, I'll trudge through life miserably.