>>16405680I feel what you are feeling right now. My guy has a diaper fetish. I made out with him (while he was wearing one) yesterday which lead to sex. I didn't want to do to because he was wearing a diaper, but I couldn't stop thinking about him (mostly sexual) during classes. I just my sexual daydreaming all day really influenced me.
Vanilla sex makes me feel good. It makes me feel more human. I feel like I just made a natural/real connection with a person. When kinky stuff is included I feel shitty. Like after masturbating; I always feel awful.
I say to either get used to it or go back to being vanilla.
>>16405680I don't wash my hands afterwards. Motherfuckers are touching/shaking my hands.