My friends urge me to get help, I often freak out, cry and get very upset over things I shouldnt.
I've had an eating disorder off and on, I don't feel like I'm depressed enough to get help.
I want to push away all my friends, and kill myself even.
I know I wouldn't be able to do it though.
Every day I contemplate slicing up my body or doing something dumb. These thoughts come more and more, although I'm not quite sure if what I'm feeling is genuine.
I can be happy. I just lost my ability to be excited over things, or actually be interested.
I'm afraid to get help, I'd just sit and cry.
But I'm also not sure if I really need it.