Won't touch me anymore. We've gone through counseling which she quit because she felt like a "Victim". I've tried helping out around the house and doing everything (I always make meals or there won't be anything to eat). I work 50 hours a week night shift to support her as a stay at home mom, I only eat and work as she spends most of the money on things and eating out when I'm asleep in the day. I've tried having date nights, cuddling, holding hands, nothing. I've tried talking, nothing.

I'm physically, mentally, and emotionally starved. I'm not getting a divorce because she's my best friend, or was, and I want to be there always for my kid.

I don't even want to cheat for sex. If I could find someone who would love me, even for a day, I would be happy.

It's never justified and never turns out well I'm sure, but what would be the best way to hide or find someone with a mutual understanding?