>boyfriend breaks up with me- wants space
>His dad died recently, his life is a mess, tells me he needs to rebuild himself before he can be a good bf
>agree to give him space and keep supporting him plutonically.
>I somehow move on after a day or two, feels like I kind of just turned my love for him "off". Realized the most logical thing to do was to focus on myself since he wanted space.
>don't know if emotions are buried or just gone after reoccurring disappointment.
>1 week later
>getting lots of lovey dovey texts and calls from him
>reminding him constantly "but exbf, we agreed to work on ourselves and keep things plutonic, remember?"
>we stay in touch- start to piece together that he's been talking to and hanging out with some gal pals of his who are all crushing on him.
>come to find out that the ACTUAL reason he broke up with me was so that he could talk to these girls without feeling guilty.
>doesn't like them but led them on because he likes the attention they give him
>I'm kinda pissed because I told him very clearly multiple times that it was ok for him to have those emotions and attractions since I was his first gf, but that he needed to be honest with those girls and with me about how he felt.
>still don't understand why he even felt the need to break up with me over this, he literally didn't even do anything with them (he abstains) so it's not like he was just trying to get a quicky or something.
>tired of this bullshit, tired of being let down, no longer blindly in love.

I don't understand why he even felt like he needed to break up with me. He wasn't even kind of close to having a relationship with any of these other girls, he is just claiming that he felt too guilty to talk to them while he was "committed to me". He drunkenly made out with one of these girls a few months ago- Maybe it's residual guilt?
Why won't he just get this shit out of his system and then decide if he wants to date me later?