>Be me
>In a very controlling and abusive relationship
>I feel guilt for literally everything
>I develop intrusive thoughts
>we're broken up now
>we still talk everyday
>I still feel like she's the only one i'm able to think of
>I have intrusive thoughts about stuff I did in my childhood and early/mid teenage-hood that I feel really guilty about (incestuous actions and incestuous masturbation and such)
>The thoughts have come back to haunt me
>tfw a musician
>just recorded a song and had an intrusive thought about a childhood memory
>feel massive guilt

tldr: Intrusive thoughts are ruining my life. I feel like i'm starting to gain control of them but now I also feel like if i'm becoming okay with these intrusive thoughts and I feel guilty about it.