>20 >completely aimless in life >fucked up community college because of bullshit depression >all friends progressed to University and moved away >while I lay rotting in this shitty town >always alone >parents have no faith in me and I don't blame them >they're barely getting by and I'm only making things worse >feel like killing myself every day I wake up >recently got a shit tier job in a restaurant >makes me so anxious and self-conscious about myself >had a couple of shifts at this point and am always fucking orders up etc >every second in that place is hell for me >want to quit so badly but my parents won't let me >feel like a fucking child when they tell me how to live my life >want to return to community college next year >I know I can get to University in a worthwhile degree >would rather sit on welfare until next September when I return to education >but even I know that's a piece of shit move