>>649241779It's not that I don't serve a purpose, everybody does, but my thoughts are that do I want to serve it? I've been told all my life I'm a great listener and always am able to find the bright side of things. I'm what I like to refer to as a background friend. I have one true friend who lives 6 hours away now, to everyone else I just am there. Nobody really has ever gone out of their way to want to interact with me, and if so it is clearly out of pity. Do I consider myself a beta? no. Do I consider myself an Alpha? no. I'm just what I've always been, just there. Today there is no god. My purpose is for others but what good is a life if others won't appreciate somebody that has been spending so much effort to the happiness of others? The last few years of my life have been spent cheering up others, all the while suppressing my inner hatred. I'm just done this time.
