I haven't wanted to live since I was molested by a priest at 10 years old. My mother and father are both in critical condition in the hospital, as well as my aunt.

I have 15 30mL bottle of Clonozolam, and 5 10mL bottle of Diclazepam.

I have and had a monstrous benzo tolerance. (80mg-100mg a day in the past) - grand mal seizures when stopping. Oh, did I forget to mention I have been a heroin adddict the past decade? I'm off now and on suboxone but i am weening so quickly and down to 2mg from 24mg in 6 weks and feel like SHIT all the time, not to mention what is going on with my family.

Today is the day. The last 20 years of my life have been depression and suffering (yes I've received years of counceling and treatment).

Since my benzo habit is so high, and I can drink a 30mL Clonazolam bottle a day, I figure 15 should do the trick, along with the 5 bottles of Diclazolam.

I haven't decided on the subs yet because when the ambulance finds me they are going to shot me with narcan (had that for heroin befor - NOT PLEASANT....so I don't know if I'm going to combine the suboxone. I don't want to be woken up in opiate withdrawal.

I may have a drink of whiskey or two or three though.

Well that's it /b/

Thanks for all the memories and laughs.

See you on the other side.

BTW....Christina, I always loved you. You broke my heart and the past ten years have spiraled out of control. I'll always love you since you are an angel, but I'll always remeber you did this to me after I treated you like a princess. The only time in my life I was happy was wehn I was with you.
I was take pics periodically as long as I'm able to.

Bye cruel fucking world.