I think this is the end of the road /b, been laying in my bed alone all day as usual, thinking about what is the point of life. There is duality in everything; sun and moon, light and darkness, good and evil, animals and plants etc...it looks like everything was made for each other by a super intellect. Yet I am always alone, no friends or gf and honestly don't want one since they have hurt my feelings a lot, the only being out there if He exists who can understand and help me is God, yet he is nowhere to be found, been looking for Him all my life. What's the point of life? if you take away all the vanity (boobs, money, socialising and nice places) what remains? Almost all people are assholes.

> be 31 yo no job, no gf, no friends
> been severely bullied during my teenage years by teachers, by fellow-students, by "friends"
> found the love of my life, told God I would go to hell for her, loved her so much, however I became depressed, after 7 years of relationship I came back from football and saw her walking with a pro football player, crushing my soul
> gave up my friends for her, but don't care afterwards since they were abusive towards me

there is much more, but it feels like this is the end of the road...there is no point to life without God....