>>34660826>Fuck anon you are right but how does one really change?I started by listening to philosophy podcasts.
Had a long way to go
>Like the urge that drives me to drink and smoke pot is because I'm fucking alone. I have friends but no gf and no one I truly connect with.Those people dont sound like friends.
Had the same problem, there is nothing wrong with having people like that in your life, but if you think those people would ridicule you for opening up to them emotionally, discussing problems etc, then they're not really friends now are they, more like acquaintances.
>I'm 20 and live in the USA so I can't go to bars to meet people>My roomies throw parties but all the people who show up are vapid and pointless individuals.>Clubs at college are bullshitJesus. are you me?
I actually had no roomies, was a shut in, functional alcoholic neet living at my parents place. but I had those kind of "friends"
I cannot actually tell you how to fix your problems :(, Im no therapist and I dont know you.
I simply got lucky to meet an incredible bro at my apprenticeship, he is basically my crutch until I learn to walk again.(social situations and all)
We hated each others guts at first mind you...
and we had ZERO in common.
Ironically it was the weed that made us to friends, we used to hang out and smoke weed, eat some nice fast food and talk about shallow things until I felt like I could actually open up and become vulnerable, at which point he realized what was happening and basically forced me to drop the weed habit and try and have fun without it.
He knew I had raised some pretty thick barriers and he always tried to poke some holes in it, until it crumbled.
Im sorry I cannot help you out more than by telling my story, but hopefully you realize that it would have only gotten worse and worse if I hadnt had the luck I had...
If you can afford it seek a therapist, if not listen to philosophy podcasts,
