>tfw chubby fucker
>tried working out at home but I always got distracted and quit, so a month and a half ago I sign a contract with a 24 hour gym (I don't usually do contracts, but I deliberately did it in this case so I would be punished if I gave up again)
>Usually go to gym late at night because of insomnia and anxiety
>Working out my muscles using the machines, you guys would laugh if I told you how much weight I use (though I am making progress), but I can feel myself getting stronger.
>tfw can easily move things at work that other people have trouble with
>tfw after you work out and you use a muscle, you can feel it like you've never felt it before
>tfw I can start to see and feel muscle coming in all over my body
>tfw getting stronger

>tfw still can't stop eating like shit though
This is a literal addiction to food oh my fucking god

>Started smoking cigarettes after my first break up, couldn't drink yet
>They made me feel nice, but I never got hooked on them. I'd smoke them maybe once or twice a week, and I smoked for about a year before I quit
>never even got any cravings after quitting, it was simple, cut and dried, it was a snap

>tfw if I even think about going a day without soda I start to get headaches (though I have been drinking more and more water)
>I have to eat fast food every day, there's a part deep in the recesses of my brain that forces me to get in my car and go to Whataburger or Sonic
>tfw fast food worse than tobacco

Anyways, /fit/, I've been going to the gym often. I just want to get muscle. Would it be possible to become bear mode by continuing to eat but working out even harder?

I don't want to be a lardass. I mean, I get it, everyone wants to look like Chris Evans, all cut and chiseled and shit. But I'd be totally fine with being a 6'3 strongman with a bit of chub. Is Eat Big to Get Big just a meme, or can I keep eating the way I have been if I don't necessarily think becoming cut and chiseled is worth it, and I just want muscle?