How can I make it with depression? I used to be on meds that helped somewhat and I made good life and muscle gains, but I lost my insurance and can't afford more medicine (I'm a poor college student with very little family financial support). Since them I've been worse than ever. Some days it's a miracle that I can even get the will power to get out of bed, let alone go to uni, work, or the gym, and I've gained thirty pounds of fat and my lifts have dropped by twenty five to forty pounds each. I was on a cut before but now I alternate between binging and eating almost nothing for days.

I want to get swole and and low body fat but I just don't know how to handle this. My life is falling apart. Any hello would be appreciated.

Also depression general.