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Quoted By: >>34726556 >>34726569 >>34726879
>just a former shell of yourself
I just wanted to be accepted. I want to be normal. Every thought is just so fucked up and anormal. I never got to experience teenage or adolescent romance. Normal human sexuality skipped over me. I was teased and socially cut off from the siphon of casual mammalian interaction. Years of this made me a perverse, educated, wicked and mentally diseased person. I am a monster.
My motives are for pure pleasure. My hate for my fellow man grows every waking hour. Sleep is the only thing that keeps it away yet I fail to get 8 hours every night.
God has abandoned me, if there is one. I followed christianity as a child yet my faith has left me.
The worst part is faking it. Telling people youre either "just tired" or "im fine", when all that you want to do is unload and show them the hell you live in. I cannot escape my hell. I want to shut the sun off and flirt with my psyche for the rest of my life.
I just wanted to be accepted. I want to be normal. Every thought is just so fucked up and anormal. I never got to experience teenage or adolescent romance. Normal human sexuality skipped over me. I was teased and socially cut off from the siphon of casual mammalian interaction. Years of this made me a perverse, educated, wicked and mentally diseased person. I am a monster.
My motives are for pure pleasure. My hate for my fellow man grows every waking hour. Sleep is the only thing that keeps it away yet I fail to get 8 hours every night.
God has abandoned me, if there is one. I followed christianity as a child yet my faith has left me.
The worst part is faking it. Telling people youre either "just tired" or "im fine", when all that you want to do is unload and show them the hell you live in. I cannot escape my hell. I want to shut the sun off and flirt with my psyche for the rest of my life.
