>>4091923It's just depressing that no woman will ever be as loyal as that of love you so much she defies everything to be with you
I think deep down we all just want a qt gf to spend our lives with and have fun. The idea that she never stops loving you even a bit and you mean everything to her until you die just depresses me that it doesn't happen.
I don't know though man, it just seems like things like that makes life worth living, but all of these animes and shit are just fantasy of adventures and unreal experiences and it just upsets me that those works of fiction will never become a reality.
When I was a child I used to cry about those things, it would keep me up, I would wish I was in a different world with my favorite cartoon characters and things. But my cries went unheard. It's something you try to suppress as cringeworthy, and everyone goes through it I assume, but most people get over it.
The fact that I will never experience a loving gf that does everything to please me and defies even her creator to prove she loves me more than anything. I've grown up surrounded by things that make me bitter and hate people, so imagining things like that just makes me hate everything around me more. I feel it also roots back from rejection from literally every girl I've ever liked, which has caused me to hate women and completely dismiss the possibility that a woman could love me like I love her.