>>50101933TL;DR;
>I am scared of psychotherapeuts and have problems connecting with people.Let's talk english, we are not going to be framed for being alive, yet:
I really want to visit a psychotherapeut,but I am mostly afraid of being written off as a duck that lays golden eggs.
I don't want that, I want ot be treated as a human being, somethin that I really crave, but have trouble... seing it from other people.
I am, realistically, the nicest person you could meet, but this feeling down just holds me back.
Just an example of what I mean:
I wake up in the morning, and instead of doing my chores, I am either masturbating, or reading 4chan, and feel very down.
What gives?
Seriously, I just want to enjoy my life and learn things, then apply it on reallife.
Share it ith other's, help other people who can certainly benefit from it
The only thing holding me back from breaking down completely is my self-build codex of staying alive, what makes taying alive relevant and actually advantageous.
It's difficult to describe, but routine I can't totally follow keeps me alive.
For an example, today I will certainly be in my bed at 2 am and will learn precalculus to catch up some stuff for analysis.
