I used to be androgynous, I had soft delicate features, the sweetest angel voice and was confused for a girl a lot but nature played a cruel trick on me because I soon had a massive Cro-magnon caveman head, straight hair with shitty hairline that barely covers 1/3 of my monstrous forehead, narrow horse face that no amount of FFS can fix, and a squeaky fag voice. I look like the quintessential rapist of Slavic descent everyone would be scared to walk by at night including men. I wish I transitioned sooner and was put on puberty blockers asap but I was too retarded to put a few things together and now because of some 4 years of bathing in shitty testosterone I am destined to be a boyfriendless hon forever. What is nature's deal? Why can't I just die? Was I Hitler in my previous life?
>mtf trans
>kicked out by unsupportive alcoholic single mom in late teens
>steadily been rebuilding relationship
>she doesnt like me being trans but accepts it now and uses my pronouns
>recently moved back in with her
>shes drunk as fuck right now
>went through my laundry and said she likes my choice in underwear
>asks if I like girls or boys
>told me to dress up for her
>I already only dress like a girl, she meant in a suggestive way
Currently waiting for my ftm bestie to pick me up. What the hell is wrong with my mom
Why the fuck wasnt I born normal
