>>5098179Fuck this is so me throughout school.
>"I'm not gay. I totally like girls."I remember just finishing grade school and everyone was constantly calling each other faggots and was generally super homophobic so we would also constantly re-assure each other that we liked girls and not guys, it didn't bother me since I was straight at the time
>"I just--I just notice when a guy is aesthetically pleasing. That's all." Then in my freshman year I started dressing in tighter stuff and I started becoming a twink, I often saw guys that I thought looked really handsome or cute and I would admire them for a while, not in a sexual way but just you know, admiring them, it didn't cross my mind at this point that I may have been showing off homo symptoms
>"Hahahaha know what's hilarious? Gay porn. Maybe I should want some." Towards the end of my freshman year I started subconsciously crack out stuff like this, like small hints here and there, I didn't even realize it myself until it randomly hit me one day
>"Shit. Maybe I'm gay."In my second year it started to really hit me that I was becoming gay, I've always found girls attractive and I had fapped countless times to lesbo stuff but I've never really had any real romantic interest in them
>"Okay, so I'm gay but I'm not a total faggot. I'm not ever going to let a guy fuck me ever."This was the next phase, sleeping with a guy was still taboo in my head but I was really drawn towards guys, the thought of just cuddling with a guy and having that "beyond bros" relationship was a very pleasant thought
>"Okay, okay, okay. So I'll do it just this once because he really wants me to. It's not like I want to at all. I'm doing it for the sake of this great big homo that I like so much."I've just recently graduated and this is pretty much me at the moment, I'm still a bit afraid of actual gay sex but I've recently met a couple of shy and cute closet homosexuals and if I get the opportunity I'm not going to turn it down.
