>>5115782you should probably slow down before you do anything permanent... you know give yourself a bit to clear your head and don't do anything drastic while you're this emotional
suicide is kind of a big decision so... don't make it right now, no reason to...
why not pull an all nighter? do as much as you can even if you can't do it all? i mean if you die either way you may as well try right? i mean... really is there a reason you gotta do this right now and you can't just wait 'til you're done with that at least?
you're in a bad situation, and you feel hopeless and i get that, but that doesn't mean dying is the only way out... and just cuz you don't have a way out right now doesn't mean that you won't ever, or that you won't grow in ways where you can see things differently than you do now and be thankful that you didn't kill yourself right now
or maybe you won't be thankful, but that will probably only be sometimes...
find shit you enjoy, experience shit... your body doesn't matter for everything you know, you're more than just your physical appearance... and there's a lot of shit in the world to see and do, a lot of worthwhile people and shit... to a certain extent life only has the value you give it... why not try to see if you can find things to value before you check out? i mean you could literally always do that, but if you do then you can't try to do anything else... so try other shit first and then see if you still want to...give yourself a year to figure shit out, revisit the idea after you've done more shit...
and ok you might fail school this time or fuck up right now, but that's not necessarily gonna be your whole life... a lot of people fail before they get their shit together
and i'm not saying this as someone who thinks suicide is wrong, and i've tried before... shit i have days where i wish i was successful at it when i tried, but my perspective on life has changed and i wouldn't try again currently... even though shit's worse now
