Yep, that's me. Short lived validation and happiness and then the depression comes right back. For example:
>last week
>picking something up from the store at like 2am
>im really bored and lonely
>old (51) middle eastern guy comes up to me
>we talk about stuff, he seems nice and friendly
>asks me to come to his place , he says i shouldn't be out on the streets being so young, he will cook for me and i can sleep and relax
>says he wont take advantage of me
>yeah right
>go to his place anyway because why not
>gives me oranges and grapefruit
>plies me with rum
>get wasted
>he starts touching me, kisses me
>tell him i have a dick
>surprised but doesn't care
>go into his bedroom and fuck
>im really drunk so i let him do whatever he wants
>he says he'll pull out but doesn't and cums inside me
>go home
>realise what disgusting trash i am
>fap to the memory of it anyway
I have so many fucked up stories like this
