I am nauseated by my existence and just now realize I will always be nothing but a gross man with breasts that no one will ever love. I hate showing my face outside because I feel like a circus freak next to people. A few people I know IRL think I will look great hon while on the internet I either get ignored or told to get FFS. My mom's been forcing me to update my wardrobe but I don't want to come off as a creepy man in a dress so idk if I ever switch to exclusively women's clothes from loose hoodies, loose jackets and loose jeans. I hated being in my body but now I do even more because the manly handsome features are there and they will never go away apparently.