Okay guys, I have a problem. Ever since I was a kid, I have found gay love to be heartwarming. I wasn't really into looking at gay porn when I was younger, because looking at any porn sort of grossed me out. I feel disgusted at the thought of myself being gay, when conversely I feel so deeply for gay rights, and I think gay love is so beautiful. I even look at a ton of pictures of naked guys, I have become obsessed with gay imagery. All the while, I just feel like, I can't escape it, I've become a sort of adversity in the eyes others. I cringe and feel sick when I think 'gay' thoughts. I really wish that it would just go away.