Help I just realized that my entire life is going to be spent trying to please and serve others who have no concern over my well being because of the pervasive systems of society. I don't want to live any longer but I can't kill myself because of the strain put on my family.

Why am I trapped in a system I do not want to be a part of?
What can be about the fact that any happiness or contentment I find will only be a short reprieve from another block of work and forced socialization?
How can I be ever happy knowing that my otherwise futile and meaningless life is going to be drained of any value or enjoyment via labor and used to fuel the oppressive machine that is society?