I always daydream about going up to a hot girl, trying to talk to her, and having nothing to say, being lost for words. I also daydream that I'll be lost for words during job interviews.

But whenever I have to talk, I always do it instantly, naturally, without even having to stop and think! On the one hand, this makes me extremely happy. I'm not autistic or any shit like that, i'm as witty as any normie, especially with 4chan and google.com / lookism giving me that edgy humour.

But on the other hand, the words come out so effortlessly and thoughtlessly, I feel like it's not even me that's saying it. It's like I'm watching myself without any control over my words. I feel like life is predetermined and that there's nothing I can do to improve myself.

Does anyone else have similar feels?