/out/ I have a problem. Years ago I started out going hiking and backpacking with my ex-fiance. I had always loved the outdoors, camping and exploring, but never had gotten into more serious hiking and backpacking. I loved it, i even lost 35lbs hiking so that i could take it more serious. Well we broke up about 3 months ago and i have not been able to get myself up and out into the woods. I have never been solo backpacking (overnight or more) and i keep telling myself its something that i have to do, that i shouldn't need someone else to be there for it to be enjoyable or possible for me to do. Each weekend that comes up i find that i have no motivation, or i find little excuses (its raining, i have errands to do, i need to relax for work, i dont feel good blahblah). So i end up sitting at home playing video games that i don't even like anymore. How do i get myself back out there? I can probably guess some responses. "Stop being a pussy". "You just have to get out there anon!" I guess im hoping for something out of left field, some epiphany level advice. Maybe i just need to give it time to work through being depressed? I should note that i still hike, but only one place that's nearby. Its a good training hike as its short (can be done after work) and has a lot of elevation gain and its one that i have done a million times prior. Other than that i cant dig down deep enough to get out there. Ironically enough, i feel like if i could conquer this fear, then it would help me evolve as a person and help me move on and heal. Thanks in advance for the advice my fellow /out/doorsmen.