This'll be the first Halloween that I don't do anything with people
I tend to either go to a big semi-anonymous costume party on my campus or just hang out with a bunch of friends and marathon horror movies, but this year I won't be doing anything
I'm trying to justify it by telling myself how much work I have to do before the end of next week, but it hurts a lot knowing that I'm leaving college before all of my friends (who are kind of fuck-ups academically)
How do I cope with this? It feels like a prequel to the loneliness I'll feel later, this weird moving on before other people catch up to you. It's like I exited the highway and they're still trudging behind
It feels singular and lonely